Here we go again drowning in a sea of pain… Feelings im not sure how to expression. Words mean nothing. just a babbling of letters. Lost in the darkness we humans call a heart, breaking my own heart just to see if i can still bleed. Ugh, i hate this feeling it creeps up on you. It sits dormant waiting for you to show your weakness then without warn it crashes down upon you. You wish nothing more than to find a way to escape it. Escape the pain, the loneliness, the darkness that consumes you. You wish you could just be happy like everyone else. So you give into the pain and just let the tears wash away the feelings for the moment until they surface again. Stabbing you like a needle slow sinking deeper and deeper into your skin the slow pain send shivers down your spine. You break down just to build yourself back up even for just a moment. Nothing more than a endless cycle of love, hate,pain. Shadows of happiness that escape you by the tip of your fingers. Its like trying to hold on to your loved ones hand as they hang from a ledge trying to save them and you can slowly slowly feel your fingers slipping. You feel the loss of control you had and with the loss of control your emotions come crashing down. Not piece by little piece it feels more like boulders. The weight of it crushes you and all that you built up is lost when the depression hits.
Now you must decide is it worth building back up or do you just let it smother you?